Day 12: As you can probably see I haven't posted since the 9th of this month. I've been a little busy doing work and studying for test and stuff but I'm back now but I don't have time to blog now so I'll blog tomorrow about my week because right now I'm going to watch Hostel 2 with my brother.
Well today I don't have anything to blog about so I'll put this because... It's my blog and I can put what I want!!!
Day 10: Today was ok. It was kinda frustrating though because I went to take the stupid CPT (college placement test) and I missed the minimum by one stuipid point. So now I have to retake it again or take the SAT or ACT. Which by the way is very retarded. ONe point, just one point and I wouldn't have to take anymore crazy hard test. SO it just frustrated me but other than that I had a good day i fixed my computer (YAAAAAY!!!!!!). So i guess that's it.
Well today is not really Day 9 it's really Day 10 but I didn't blog yesterday so I decided to post this(I found this on myspace and I have to be honest it touched my heart :) :
Month one:
Hi Mommy!
I am only 8 inches long
but I have all my organs.
I love the sound of your voice.
Every time I hear it
I wave my arms and legs.
The sound of your heart beat
is my favorite lullaby.
Month Two
Mommy
today I learned how to suck my thumb.
If you could see me
you could definitely tell that I am a baby.
I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though.
It is so nice and warm in here.
Month Three
You know what Mommy
I'm a boy!!
I hope that makes you happy.
I always want you to be happy.
I don't like it when you cry.
You sound so sad.
It makes me sad too
and I cry with you even though
you can't hear me.
Month Four
Mommy
my hair is starting to grow.
It is very short and fine
but I will have a lot of it.
I spend a lot of my time exercising.
I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes
and stretch my arms and legs.
I am becoming quite good at it too.
Month Five
You went to the doctor today.
Mommy, he lied to you.
He said that I'm not a baby.
I am a baby Mommy, your baby.
I think and feel.
Mommy, what's abortion?
Month Six
I can hear that doctor again.
I don't like him.
He seems cold and heartless.
Something is intruding my home.
The doctor called it a needle.
Mommy what is it? It burns!
Please make him stop!
I can't get away from it!
Mommy! HELP me!
Month Seven
Mommy
I am okay.
I am in Jesus's arms.
He is holding me.
He told me about abortion.
Why didn't you want me Mommy?
Every Abortion Is Just . . .
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.
Hi Mommy!
I am only 8 inches long
but I have all my organs.
I love the sound of your voice.
Every time I hear it
I wave my arms and legs.
The sound of your heart beat
is my favorite lullaby.
Month Two
Mommy
today I learned how to suck my thumb.
If you could see me
you could definitely tell that I am a baby.
I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though.
It is so nice and warm in here.
Month Three
You know what Mommy
I'm a boy!!
I hope that makes you happy.
I always want you to be happy.
I don't like it when you cry.
You sound so sad.
It makes me sad too
and I cry with you even though
you can't hear me.
Month Four
Mommy
my hair is starting to grow.
It is very short and fine
but I will have a lot of it.
I spend a lot of my time exercising.
I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes
and stretch my arms and legs.
I am becoming quite good at it too.
Month Five
You went to the doctor today.
Mommy, he lied to you.
He said that I'm not a baby.
I am a baby Mommy, your baby.
I think and feel.
Mommy, what's abortion?
Month Six
I can hear that doctor again.
I don't like him.
He seems cold and heartless.
Something is intruding my home.
The doctor called it a needle.
Mommy what is it? It burns!
Please make him stop!
I can't get away from it!
Mommy! HELP me!
Month Seven
Mommy
I am okay.
I am in Jesus's arms.
He is holding me.
He told me about abortion.
Why didn't you want me Mommy?
Every Abortion Is Just . . .
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.
This is very much grammatically incorrect... but who cares!!!
Suicide
Is it worth it?? Does it rlly solve da problem??
Does it truly free some1 frm depression and confusion??
Or does it add to the pain?? does it make life worse for not only da person dat commits suicide but the ppl they left behind??
Wat about da problems they had??
Are their problems gone forever or do they simply get passed to someone else?? If the person committed suicide does that make the problems they had any worse than the problems dat someone else may have?? Or does it simply make that person a coward for takin the easy way out?? Did they do it cuz they even had a problem??
did they do it cuz they felt no one cared?? Or cuz they felt they had no one, they felt as if they were alone?? Is it possible that they rlly didn’t have anyone?? Or maybe they rlly didn’t hav any friends or that they were in reality, alone in da world??
How long were they feelin like suicide was da answer to their problem?? How many days did their life go on b4 they knew it was time for them to go?? How many ppl ignored the signs that something was wrong?? How many ppl walked by and knew something was wrong with them but could care less??
Wat kinda person decides to commit suicide?? Are they a bad person for feelin dat suicide is da answer?? Or are they a brave person for doin it?? Or once they’ve done it or attempted to commit suicide are they deemed as someone who juss cant handle stress??
Who’s fault is it?? Is it their fault for no bein able or not wantin to deal wit da stress in they life?? Or is it their family friends fault for not realizing that something was wrong??
So many questions and the only ppl that can answer them are the ones that have done it But the in reality no one can answer these questions cuz the ones that have done it cant speak cuz their gone and da sad part is these questions don’t come up until that person is gone…
**NOTE: FOR NO REASON SHOULD YOU BELIEVE THAT THIS IS MY WAY OF SAYIN THAT IM CONSIDERIN SUICIDE. I NEVER WILL AND NOR HAVE I EVER CONSIDERED SUICIDE. THIS IS SIMPLY MY WAY OF EXPRESSING MYSELF**
It's very much grammatically incorrect... But who cares!!
Confused
im confused
im confused bout my life
im confused bout my feelings
im confused bout da ppl dat i call friends
right now im juss in a state of confusion wat im i gonna do??? i dunno my life is nothin more than confusion right now im doin nothin goin nowhere im not depressed but den again i rlly dunno i could be depressed.............. but y?? alot of ppl would say "ur 15 u cant be depressed" but depression dun come wit an age but im not depressed i hav nothin to be depressed bout or do i?? would goin to 3 funerals in 3 months depress u?? would bein away frm the only family u kno for two yrs and only havin ur mom and bro with u depress u?? would bein somewhere u rlly
dun wanna be depress u?? would ppl constantly comin in and out of ur life depress u?? would constant dissatisfaction wit ur self depress u??
how bout the feelin of loneliness even when ur wit the ones u love??
would not knowin if da ppl u call friends r rlly ur friends
or ppl dat juss like usin da word?? or am i takin small things and makin them bigger than they r?? or am i switching bein confused wit depression??
there alwasy seem to be more questions than answers
but seems like for me there are nothin but questions
and no answers and havin no answers means more question which juss adds to more confusion ppl always say life is full of wonders well..... im sicka wonderin im sicka wonderin when im goin to anotha funeral
or if i tell dis "friend" somethin will everyone kno by
the end of da day........ im sicka wonderin who to trust....
im sicka bein confused
I don't know why I wrote it I guess it was just something or some stuff going through my mind at the time. But don't worry I'm not confused anymore!!!
I don't know why I wrote it I guess it was just something or some stuff going through my mind at the time. But don't worry I'm not confused anymore!!!
Today I'm not going to tell you about my day (because it was boring) but I'm going to share something I wrote today it's not really a poem just some thoughts I had:
Assume- to guess the truth about something/someone with little or no facts (my personal definition). Why assume something if you don't know the answer?? Why waste your time guessing and coming up with your won truth when you can simply ask someone what you wanted to know?? Or why ask someone something and assume that their not telling the truth?? In my opinion there is never a reason to assume if you can simply ask. For the simple fact that not only does assuming something makes it harder for you to handle or accept the truth but it also could potentially hurt someones feelings and show how you really feel about them or what you think of them (more than likely the person you're assuming something about). Just because your assumption is your opinion and you have the right to have an opinion doesn't mean it won't hurt someones feelings. So why assume??
I named this poem Untitled #1 because from now on every Friday I have decided to post a poem but the catch is it will be titled Untitled due to the fact that when you read the title of something it kinda helps you decide whether or not you wanna read but if it has no title or is named with a questioning title you're more likely to take a look at it then if the title was a give away to what the poem was about. So heres the first poem:
Do you see what I see?? I see a boy who was once happy but is now depressed and unusually lonely. Do you see it?? I see a girl who is constantly angry and runs to friends for help instead of the people who love her the most. Do you see it?? I see a boy who's gone and isn't coming back because of the way he was treated. Do you see it?? I see a girl who's constantly questioning the loyalty of her friends or if theres any loyalty at all. Do you see it?? I see a boy who's insecurities are not only the result of people around him but also the people he calls family. Do you see it?? I see a boy who's intelligence is overwhelming but is often assumed to be dumb or lazy due to the little effort he puts into his work. Do you see it?? No you don't see it. You don't see it because you only see what you want to see. More than likely this is what you see:
You see a boy who was once happy but who is now quiet and keeps to himself and you have no intentions to ask why because you don't care. You see a girl who has a bad attitude and is always whispering to friends. You see a boy who committed suicide and you'll never know why because you really don't or have seen him as a person just another kid calling himself depressed. You see a boy who's constantly holding his head down as he walks and you don't care why. You see a boy who never does his work no matter how difficult or easy it is you just chalk it up to being lazy instead of taking a moment out of your day to ask a few questions. You don't see what I see because you see only what you want to see and not whats being put in front of you.
**Take the time to look at each individual around you not just stereotype or make assumptions based on how someone acts, looks, or displays emotion. Because everything you see isn't necessarily what's really there.**
You see a boy who was once happy but who is now quiet and keeps to himself and you have no intentions to ask why because you don't care. You see a girl who has a bad attitude and is always whispering to friends. You see a boy who committed suicide and you'll never know why because you really don't or have seen him as a person just another kid calling himself depressed. You see a boy who's constantly holding his head down as he walks and you don't care why. You see a boy who never does his work no matter how difficult or easy it is you just chalk it up to being lazy instead of taking a moment out of your day to ask a few questions. You don't see what I see because you see only what you want to see and not whats being put in front of you.
**Take the time to look at each individual around you not just stereotype or make assumptions based on how someone acts, looks, or displays emotion. Because everything you see isn't necessarily what's really there.**
Day 7: As you can see from the title I'm in school. I decided to get online and blog because I was bored and tired of waiting on my teacher to help me. But anyways today so far has been so-so I took a quiz or test or what ever in math and got a 66.7%. It was only 3 questions long and I still pretty much failed it. But all I can say is that I tried my best on it. BUt besides that my day so far has been great I finally completed my practice SAT Booklet and I submitted my scores online and the scores were: Critical Reading- 510, Writing- 540, Math- 450. I think that's pretty good considering this is my first time practicing the SAT!! But anyways now I'm out of school and something that I thought was unthinkable and unimaginable happened today... But I can't tell you!!! HA HA HA HA!!! So... maybe something really did happen or I'm just trying to turn you into Curious George. You never know!!!
My Views on American Society: I think that American Society has definitely been "altered" opposed to what our forefathers expected it to be. By that I mean that the Constitution and the Bill of Rights is nothing but papaer that don't really hold any real power in our society. For example free speech isn't really free because with free speech there are only so few more steps before your exercise of free speech turns into a crime such as inciting a riot or something stupid. What about public education I don't get it. Or the No Child Left Behind thing they got going on. As much as they say no child is left behind but there are kids in the 8th grade who read on a 3rd grade level. I know you're probably wondering how'd they make it that far. they made it that far because nobody took the time to pay attention to them they only had enough time to get them out f their class as soon as possible. Oh and what about the.... (check back next week for Pt.2)
Day 6: Today was actually better then usual. I mean it wasn't as easy as yesterday but it was more exciting, it seemed like it was better than yesterday. So, today I went to school (as if i had a choice) went to all my classes (english, analysis of functions, physics, spanish 2, first aid and safety, anatomy and physiology, and computer programming (in that order)) didn't get much homework. Yeah I know sounds like a pretty boring day, therefore i don't know why today seemed more interesting then yesterday!! So... I guess this is it for today... I can't think of anything else to think to write about...
Day 5: YAAAAAAAAY!!! Today I didn't forget to post!!! I say I had a good day. Nothing went wrong all my classes were simple nothing to hard or demanding. I mean to be completely honest there was really nothing to think about in school because everything was so easy. The hardest thing I did today was... ask my guidance counselor for a SAT Registration Booklet and the SAT Practice Book (The SAT is Copyrighted and/or a Registered trademark of CollegeBoard.com, Inc.). But yeah today theres not much to blog about because nothing really happened. So maybe tomorrow will be more exciting, hopefully it will be, for your sake at least.
Day 4: As you can probably tell from the date above the title day 4 is one day late... OH WELL!!! Yeah yesterday I kinda forgot to get online and blog. But I'm doing it today so that's all that matters.
Anyways today(yesterday) was a pretty good day. As usual I went to school did what I had to do their and of course left when it was time to leave. But after school I didn't go home I went to the local community college and took the college placement test. But before I was able to take the placement test I had to meet with one of their academic advisor's (a process no one at my high school thought to mention to me before sending me on my way) to talk about the process of Dual Enrollment (if you don't know what that is click here) and admissions to their college and technical school. So after she finished talking we(me and a friend of mine) were finally able to go ahead and complete our testing.
Well as far as the testing goes it was... not as easy as you may think. I did pretty good considering I'm only in the 10th grade. But here are my scores you can be the judge: Reading-(83*) 81, Writing-(83*) 84, Elem. Algebra-(72*) 65, and Arithmetic or College Math-(44*) 77. The * next to the number is the minimum you can get before being placed in remedial classes. But don't get in your head that I'll be taking remedial because before I do that I'll stay in high school. But I won't have to take remedial classes because my ACT scores exempted me from the reading anyways (YAAAAAAY!!!!) but I plan to retake the Elem. Algebra because once again I'm NOT taking remedial classes. But all in all my day was good. It was some might say.. insightful!! :)
Anyways today(yesterday) was a pretty good day. As usual I went to school did what I had to do their and of course left when it was time to leave. But after school I didn't go home I went to the local community college and took the college placement test. But before I was able to take the placement test I had to meet with one of their academic advisor's (a process no one at my high school thought to mention to me before sending me on my way) to talk about the process of Dual Enrollment (if you don't know what that is click here) and admissions to their college and technical school. So after she finished talking we(me and a friend of mine) were finally able to go ahead and complete our testing.
Well as far as the testing goes it was... not as easy as you may think. I did pretty good considering I'm only in the 10th grade. But here are my scores you can be the judge: Reading-(83*) 81, Writing-(83*) 84, Elem. Algebra-(72*) 65, and Arithmetic or College Math-(44*) 77. The * next to the number is the minimum you can get before being placed in remedial classes. But don't get in your head that I'll be taking remedial because before I do that I'll stay in high school. But I won't have to take remedial classes because my ACT scores exempted me from the reading anyways (YAAAAAAY!!!!) but I plan to retake the Elem. Algebra because once again I'm NOT taking remedial classes. But all in all my day was good. It was some might say.. insightful!! :)
Day 3: As crazy as it may seems a lazy teen does go to school (yes I know that's very unfortunate). Today as you should know was Monday and as any other teen in the state of Florida I went to school today. It was a normal day at school I mean, it's what I would consider normal; I woke up as anybody else would, went to school, went to all my classes (Eng 2 hon., analysis of functions(math), physics, Spanish 2, first aid and safety (aka nap time), anatomy and physiology, and business cmptr. programming). Then I retreated to my bus for a 30 minute ride to my luxurious apartment (yes I am exaggerating) and made dinner for my little brother, my mom, and myself. Yes not only am I a lazy teen but I am an intelligent lazy teen who can cook (God I hope that doesn't sound conceited). But all in all today was a pretty normal day nothing exciting really happened. I know if you have been reading this blog, you're probably been wondering why write a blog if it's not interesting well the answer is... BECAUSE I WANT TO and I'M ON A MISSION (to blog everyday)!!!!!
Day 2: Well it's day 2 (Sep.30, 2007) and yet today is no more interesting then yesterday. Well except... today I watched some movies (Friday the 13th 4-6 (not in that order)). Yes that is correct I watched those movies out of order due to tha fact that today my literacy level dropped about 5 grade levels. I didn't realize that on the back it clearly tells you what number in the series that movie is so instead of watching 4, 5, 6; I watched 5, 4, 6. But it really doesn't matter because as usual Jason Vorhees was killing people in the same voulger manner as usual. An also as usual everyone died except maybe one or two people who were smart enough to run or fight back, or possibly just got lucky. Besides watching horror movie all day I didn't really do much it was once again a usually boring day for a lazy teen. 
<<== Yes I'm in Shock!!!!!
<<== Yes I'm in Shock!!!!!
Day 1: Today is the first day of my new mission. The mission is to start a daily blogging journal. I have absolutely no clue why this is the mission it just is so I'm going to do it. From now until I decide to stop blogging this blog will be about what ever is on my mind at the time or anything that happened that day. So to begin this prolonged session of blogging I assume i shall tell you about my day.
Well, today I didn't do much of anything. The only thing I've done today is cook for me and my little brother THINK about doing my reading assignment and watch television. Yes this is a normal day for a lazy teen. The high point of my day was... umm... when I... ok so I admit there was no high point of my day due to the fact that i didn't do anything. But hey maybe tomorrow will be better maybe even more exciting, hopefully for your benefit.
Well, today I didn't do much of anything. The only thing I've done today is cook for me and my little brother THINK about doing my reading assignment and watch television. Yes this is a normal day for a lazy teen. The high point of my day was... umm... when I... ok so I admit there was no high point of my day due to the fact that i didn't do anything. But hey maybe tomorrow will be better maybe even more exciting, hopefully for your benefit.